Naturally Me: Afro Independence Day!!!

Naturally Me: Afro Independence Day!!!

Afro Independence Day!!!

This Fourth of July make a statement with your beautiful fro everywhere you go :)

Sorry I left you... Left you cryin :(

Wowww where do I start.... ok I know this post is long overdue but trust me I have had my reasons.  This school year was not a good one to me I don't exactly know why my grades took a turn for the worst but I do know that I need to get back to my former academic status.  Passing is simply not enough for me if I know that I did not truly give a course all I have to offer.  I was even considering dropping out for a year just to get my mind back, but after a long  and tearful talk with my advisor, we figured that the freshman Chantel was still somewhere inside me and I just have to wake her up again.

I did have a new love starting from December but he decided to call our relationship quits after 4 months of was seemed like the best few months of my life.  I mean call me naive or crazy whatever you want lol "every bit of 20 yrs old".  I actually thought that I had found that one person who I couldn't live without, who I would die for, sacrifice for, do almost ANYTHING for.  Apparently he didn't feel the same.  It hurt like hell at the time and my chest still has pains if I think about it too long, but I've been through too much to let one more hiccup get in the way of my dreams.  As of now the love life stuff is on hold (my goal is to remain single for the entire school year, wish me luck).  I hate that I let myself believe that he was the end all and be all for me and that wasnt the case.  I mean honestly I'd rather a person not say that they love me and want this great future with me unless they know in their heart that its forreal.  I wouldn't tell someone I loved them unless I actually felt it in my heart, and I DAMN sure wouldn't profess to be IN LOVE with them either.  I feel so played to the left that I could've ended up on the right side of the world and not have known it. 

Like I said a lot of stuff has gone down since my last entry.  Dont worry the hair is not falling out (thank ya Jesus)  I'm currently rocking month old kinky twists, which I am considering taking down very soon.  As usual I dont know what Im going to do next, I want to try some roller sets as well as wearing my real hair in twists, plus I know I need a trim desperately.  I feel like I should take some time while looking for a new job lol to reinvent myself.  I want a new tattoo, piercing, haircolor, even better body :) this is the time in my life where I have the freedom to do whatever I want and please only myself.  Why not go full throttle? After all I only get this life once and I wanna have something to tell my kids (God willing I make it that far). 

But Im out here if you're still listening and I will get back to my regular posting :)

Gettin It in In 2010

Sooooo normally I dont do the whole New Year's Resolution thing because I believe you set goals for yourself every chance you get not just at the beginning of the year.  Now I feel like I wanna do so much with this extra time I have since Im only taking 13 hrs this semester.  My wig project was a start and I know I wanna experiment a lot more with my hair and just be bold and exciting.  I'm still looking for a job and I know I will find one when the time is right so that's in God's hands.  Other than that I really wanna focus on getting in shape and just making healthier choices.  I mean let's face it I dont wanna be a diabetic or have hypertension of some kind like the rest of my family so I might as well get on this healthy kick ASAP.  I realize that the one thing that stops me from doing things like working out or playing sports is that Im afraid people will see me and judge me.  Truth is I love love love sports and always have, I was just too chicken in high school to try out in high school.  I was afraid that I wasn't gonna be good enough and I just wanted to do it for the adrenaline rush.  I havent ran in a long time but I remember that I felt really liberated when I just let go and ran at whatever pace came to me, it was the best feeling in the world. 

So that being said here are my NYE resolutions:
Pray more and incorporate God into my everyday life (Taking Jesus off the self, Life's too hard without him)
Get fit! Try different exercises include cardio, yoga, and resistance
Experiment with more hairstyles (Braids, Twists, Wigs, Weaves etc)
Try things I've never eaten before
Learn to play card games
Study during the time I have in between classes
Make A's and B's this semester

Relationships

Ya know every once in a while a sista realizes that she's dealing with stuff way beyond her maturity level.  I have been having that moment ever since school started.  Maybe its because my classes arent really pertaining to my major and not of them really spark and interest in learning inside me.  Orrrrrr it could be that I can't find a job right now that won't make me settle for fast food and extra weight gain (not that I wouldnt mind gaining weight as long as Im proportioned and dont look like an oompa loompa). 

Whatever the case may be I was actually God damned ticked off at my BF yesterday.  That rat got the nerve to say "Bay are you gonna spend monday with me?" and my dumb ass agreed.  So everything was good right I woke up with him monday morning and he went to handle some business so I took the time to finish my wig.  Got back to his place and asked what we were gonna do... his reply "I'm goin on my run and the me and the boys are gonna shoot some hoops"

(Bernie Mac Moment)
America is this your definition of spending the day together.  It wouldnt have been so bad if his little bball tournament didn't turn me being in the house by myself with a dog for HOURS. That's right America ya girl said HOURS.  Smh

N E who we resolved the issue I just had to vent a lil bit sometime you just gotta let it out like my penguins on Happy Feet say ;)